And I realised that at the heart of my fear of presenting is about being uncomfortable with power. It's the same as why I fear walking into a room of people - when you do that, you hold the power.
We all know people who are deliberately late to meetings. They relish the power of making people wait and feeling everyone's gaze as they walk in. The meeting may being now that I'm here, they say.
Thinking about it objectively as a transfer of power, the the form of attention, makes it feel a lot more manageable to me. When you walk into a room and feel all the eyes on you, it's up to you what to do next. Would you like to hold on to the power for as long as possible or only briefly before you transfer it to someone else? It's up to you.